All the medications that I am taking or I take. Bascially I am trying to become more organized with all the meds that I’m on. And I got them together from all corners of my apartment and I finally got them into a little pile. Because I have multiple conditions and have to take multiple meds for and vitamins. It is one thing to say I take these but then when I look at all of them it is so overwhelming. And it is easy to say I can not take one or two days of meds and it is easy to say well, I never took so many meds so I should able to do this without these many meds. I don’t know. It just seems things are on a downwards spiral and I’m just keep adding meds and adding things and not subtracting. [I would educate treatment providers] to be more aware of everything that people take, not just the psych meds. Because that is just a part of what you are taking and I think it would help understand why I don’t want to take so many pills. I feel like such a drug addict sometimes, taking so many pills. Makes me feel depressed and overwhelmed and like a failure because I have to take so many medications. Doesn’t help with the depression, perpetuates and just kind of cycles, I guess. The doctors don’t understand why you want to go off meds or stop taking care of them. They just don’t understand that you feel like a drug addict. They just don’t understand that when you just add another pill it make it worse. They just don’t understand.