An Empty Gym

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An Empty Gym

An empty gym. Two ways that this is interesting: in 1 way a lot of what you feel before you get the medication or treatment you feel empty and isolated in this big area but at the same time in your life there should be things in life, hobbies but they just sit around and you don’t do them.  They are just there.  That is just the nature of my depression. I’m sure it is different for everybody, well I know that because I’ve met so many people who have felt so differently with depression… I guess, for other people when you lose interest in a lot of activities and they just kind of sit idle, then in conjunction, that is another reason to get checked out.  As for providers, that is something that really should be in therapy, once you find out what the person’s hobbies and interests are then they could really push those and ask those people about them.  Even if at first the person doesn’t do them, eventually they will.  Get that pilot light up and going.  If you know somebody who is dealing with that, try to get them into activities that they have enjoyed in the past…I guess, 1 thing is that it is hard admit that you should go in for something like this.  Especially in this part of the country, at least that is how I felt and how I was raised was that you should be self-sufficient.  It is also really hard to see when it is happening to you.  You can spot it [in] other people but you don’t really see it or want to admit it in yourself.  I mean I certainly didn’t realize how bad it was.  Especially for me you go to your general practioner, and send you to therapy and then that person couldn’t help you so you go to [something like a partial hospitalization program] until the therapists can help you.  It makes you realize how bad it could have gotten, I mean the next step could have been [an inpatient hospital]. I am still in treatment to a certain extent and there is always is going to be good and bad days.  But that is one of those things that I’ve lived with so long but now that I’m aware of it I realize you can’t ignore it.  I realize with my social nature that I will never be an extreme extrovert, it is just not in my nature.  You have to realize what is in your personality and what is in the depression.