I Lined up all my meds and I thought, how can this possibly be good for me and at what point do the positives of medicine turn into a negative? As far as the blood pressure and cholesterol, I could give up because I don’t feel anything from those but the anxiety and depression meds I can feel those. Even when I don’t want to take the meds I always take the anxiety and depression meds. The first few times I was on meds, I did what everyone does and stopped taking them but now, like I said Radical Acceptance and my Dr. said I will be on them all my life. So I better get used to them. But it makes you wonder if you do you more harm than good. My friend, I don’t think he died from the cancer, I think he died from the chemo. It was just so hard on his body and he ended up having a stroke. And this 43 year old man was in the hospital with his wife and kids and just waiting for him to die. Another friend found out he had colon cancer and he decided not to do anything, no chemo. It has been 5 years since then and it makes you wonder if the drugs are the wrong thing. My Dr. has tried to talk to me about things. With cholesterol and blood pressure, he pushes the exercise. The medicines will help you but ultimately it is the exercise that will benefit you. I don’t know, it’s… I thought about what I would do if I had cancer. Would I do what my friend did or just let the cancer run its course? But I don’t have an answer for that. One of those things you would just have to decide. Kind of like depression, you don’t really understand unless you have to go through it. I know what it is like to not take those drugs [for depression] and I can feel it. The other types you have to have your blood taken and that is the only way you know it is working. The anti-depressants I can feel, I know they are working.