No wonder my life is so confused because when your doctor shows you and maps [a model of your brain when it’s anxious]. It is the tootsie roll pop anxiety model. Map of thoughts and anxiety. When you look at the new people in [mental health treatment] their eyes are glazed over. It is not readable so the picture is hard to see. I enjoy [the provider’s] lectures and his analogies. But from what I’ve heard and back to the first time I heard this, I probably didn’t understand this either. The depression doesn’t help and then he throws all this mumble jumble at you. In fact even one guy who had a traumatic brain injury and every day he would say, I just don’t understand this. And he was taking it as because of my injury is not understanding. I kept telling him that it is because you are green and some stuff you let go because it doesn’t pertain to you. But then when he does this lecture again, and the meds are working then you will get another part of it as it relates. I don’t know, I guess I just try to help out the rookies because I have been through it so many times. [The provider] talks too fast or I can’t read what he wrote there or I don’t know, I’ve been through it before and I get it, I understand it but especially [in a new mental health treatment setting] when they hit you with all different things, it is just very intense when you first start. You brain is just not working quite right, but over time this stuff will just start to sink in. I don’t know, [the treatment provider] could write clearer…?