I went to my pastor and asked, why is God doing this to me? What am I doing wrong and his only answer was that it is my cross to bear. It put things into perspective that it was the hand I was dealt. It kind of sucked but he helped by telling me it is nothing that I did. For some people it is cancer that it is their cross to bear, for me it is depression. I believe it. I wanted God to just take it away, but once he said that, it has made sense and if that is what God wants for me, then I don’t know…I think back to helping people and trying explain to a friend that it isn’t his brain injury that is causing the stuff and helping another friend that the glimmer of hope is your on to a start of a medication benefit now. If this is my cross to bear so that I can help people, then I gladly accept it. The picture says it all. I think as soon as you accept that this is the way it is then you take the power away from the depression and you put the power back on your side. It is empowering. Once you accept it, goes together with education, it is not as bad as you think it is, once you accept it.