I was on a walk in my home town and saw this. The mattress looks how I feel on the inside. Worthless now, gross and used.
I was at a really tough point in my life a few years ago, where everything just started falling apart. The guy I thought I’d marry didn’t want to so I started drinking every night. I started having sex with guys I didn’t know very well. I felt used and kind of gross. Even though it’s been three years, it still has an impact on me.
I’ve been in a relationship for a year and half now and I think "what if he found out about that?" Would he still think of me the same way? Sometimes, I think about that and go to a dark place and feel like this. Nobody wants this mattress, that’s why it’s free and that’s how I feel a lot of the time.